Hello Mumsnet!
I'm back again for some support - I've made other threads about my OCD and how much I struggle after being diagnosed 2 years ago now.
I've really not been doing great over the last 2 months - I've lost a stone in weight, I can't eat or sleep. All day every day I am thinking about vomiting, feeling sick, being sick - constantly visioning myself violently throwing up in every situation. I'm sat in meetings at work taking nothing in because I'm just thinking about running out or throwing up everywhere, I'm having conversations with my (luckily very supporting and understanding!) partner and taking nothing in because my head is just constantly playing imagery of me vomiting.
I struggle really badly with emetophobia alongside my OCD and finally spoke to my doctor about how bad it's been. I was honest about how it's impacting me, I cried and probably rambled but he listened. I had CBT therapy when I was first diagnosed but I didn't find it something that could help for me.
I've now been prescribed fluoxetine (or prozac), I've never taken any sort of medication for my mental health before and I wondered if anyone would mind sharing their experiences with it?
In the last year, I've stopped eating meat completely - I live on potatoes, green veg and occasionally beans, stopped drinking alcohol, stopped leaving my house for anything other than work - I don't see my family or friends because I get so anxious I convince myself I will be sick or someone near me will be sick. I feel like I need to be somewhere I'm in control - my home which I can keep clean, my desk which I can keep clean, I'm struggling badly.
If anyone would be able to share their experience I would really appreciate it - I'm desperate to get back to the me that I know is here under the OCD.