Bad depression

[MummyToBoys29]

I have an appointment at the doctors on Thursday in the morning but I’m thinking about cancelling it. I know myself I am severely depressed and all I live for is my children, partner and dog. If they are happy then I don’t care about me. I am petrified that if I open up to the doctor then he will not see me as a fit mother even though my sons school will confirm he is well looked after and supported and cared for in every way and the health visitor can also confirm this for both my boys. I’ve thought about getting advice from my sons sendco teacher but the thought of telling someone I’m struggling with my thoughts and health makes my toes curl and I don’t want to look or seem like I’m struggling mentally. What if my doctor calls social because I’m depressed. I 1000% will just end it all if anyone tries taking my kids. I’m not sure why I’m typing this but I need to offload this somewhere…. I’m sorry

Why would social services be involved? A silly amount of parents take antidepressants/ are depressed, it's practically normal now. You won't be reported unless you say something about hurting children or neglecting them. Doctor will probably give you pills, refer you to low level CBT and then ask you to return in a couple of weeks to see how you're getting on.

The doctor wouldn’t call social services because you’re depressed. They only would if they believed you to be a danger to your children, and nothing in your post suggests that you are. Please don’t worry. You sound like a great mother and social services don’t remove children from great mothers. You just need some help, so please do talk to your GP or health visitor as that’s what they are there for.

@Strawberrycheesecake7 Thank you so much for getting back to me and not being judgemental! I appreciate you! I’m grieving over the loss of my mum and my son he autism and adhd so life as you can imagine is all over the place… I will open up to my doctors and go from there … Thank you again xx

I'm a social worker... Two kids... have anxiety, depression, ptsd and on anti depressants.

Trust me- a mum recognising she needs support and going to the GP will NOT lead to anything other than a bit of help. Good for you for being brave x

So rude