Feeling so low with nearly 12 week old

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My 12 week old is breaking me physically and mentally

While she sleeps well at night (and I know some will say I’m complaining about nothing!) the days are horrific not to put to fine a point on it. She just doesn’t sleep. Today for example she briefly slept on the nursery run (maybe 830) then she was awake until 11. She fell asleep at half one and I thought brilliant … but woke up twenty minutes later. Since then she’s had maybe 10 minutes at 6 and she’s now beside herself with exhaustion. I just have to walk around all day with her. I’m so tired and to be honest, bored of it. She won’t go in the pram either so my arms are aching (she’s not a massive sling fan either but sometimes she will. Has to be outside though.)

I get nothing done, I’m getting PA comments from DH about it - I know he shouldn’t but he does. I think he thinks he’s being funny. He isn’t. He also wants a normal sex life and I’m absolutely broken.

I forgot what horrendously hard work babies are

My DS was the same. It's so relentless and boring. This was during the first lockdown too so we couldn't even go out anywhere or see anyone!

The thing that saved me was the jumparoo which you're not meant to use until 5/6 months but I put DS in at 3.5 months (with a cushion under his feet). He loved it, would jump for ages and fall asleep in it. Yes I ignored the age limit but needs must.

Also when you just have to carry them round for ages or they cry, try listening to podcasts using earbuds.

He then started letting me sit him in his bouncer in front of me doing housework and would watch me.

It gets better. Don't worry about not getting anything done. This too shall pass (I used to walk around repeating this to myself, often while crying). DS is now 3.5 and I'm due my second soon!

Oh it’s so hard isn’t it? Yeah a baby reclining seat is good and also a mat you can put them on and play with toys?

It will get better. Forget housework and any sex obligations you might feel, you’ve got a three month old and things might need to slip for a while.