Still bad from breakdown and feeling suicidal

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So I had a mental breakdown back in June caused by many past traumatic experiences.
Had the crisis team involved twice and on meds.
Fast forward now and I still feel utterly crap.
Have developed anxiety going out and generally don’t want to get out of bed most mornings.
I long for night time so I can sleep as it’s the only release I get.
My mind is constantly on high alert lost 2 stone in weight as my anxiety has taken my appetite away.
Most days I feel suicidal only my dd stops me doing it as she has no one else.
Will this ever pass? I’m single and feel desperately alone with this like my life will stay like this now. I’m 44 so maybe peri thrown into the mix. Has anyone else felt this low and come back? And if you have got this far thanks for reading.

Have been referred to ADAPT whoever they are but am aware waiting lists are long.

I’m a similar age and I struggle with anxiety too. I can’t even sleep, I wake up in a panic. Do you have anxiety or depression? Or a bit of both? If it’s any comfort I have been extremely low on at least two occasions prior to this and still got back to normal.

@Spodey both the anxiety is really bad at the moment never had it like this in my life. Good to know you have got back to normal hope your still doing well.

I have been seeing the Crisis Team every day for the past week and started meds about 10 days ago. I know how you feel. Mornings are the worst for me, I just wake up with the worst anxiety and fear...

Anyway I don't know how long it will take for people like us to feel better but I wanted to say that you are not alone in going through this.

Mental health issues are really hard to deal with but keep fighting!

I was told that the meds can sometimes cause even more anxiety in the beginning and that it takes a while for them to start working properly. It might be worth checking if you are on medication whether maybe a different brand might work better for you. You might also want to go back under the care of the Crisis Team if your are struggling with suicidal thoughts. You don't want to battle this on your own.

I'm the same too! 46 peri, anxiety thru the roof. Started meds that aren't working fully and I'm sick of feeling anxious about everything with intrusive thoughts.
Hang in there x

I’m bad again at the moment, hence why I’m hanging around the MH board. I think previously I’ve had more depression whereas this time it’s more anxiety. Perhaps long term depression has led to anxiety, I think that’s quite common.

I saw this recommended on another thread and found it helpful to read. Hope you feel better soon.

https://archive.org/details/selfhelpforyourn00week

Sorry if this isn’t helpful. I have never ever felt either depressed or anxious, not even low mood.

40 arrived & wham, I felt hopeless, sad all the time, feeling of what’s the point & generally low mood most of the time. Sometimes utterly flat & depressed. Please don’t underestimate peri menopause & hormones. It’s literally changed me as a person.

The fact that you suffer from depression & have had a breakdown, would you consider HRT alongside your ongoing treatment?

I hope you get some good help & hang in there, you sound like a wonderful mum.

I’m so sorry to hear these stories, it just be awful for you. Please keep getting help and speaking to people/taking the medication. I don’t suffer but I will be thinking of you all. I hope you get better quickly

I’ve neglected myself so much over the years and I look at the few tatty clothes I have and the state of me in general and I just can’t face the outside world anymore. I just look weird in everything I wear because I’m ugly and weird looking. I know it sounds like depression but honestly when I’m out ppl look at me because I look so weird and crap.

I’m trying to buy new clothes but honestly everything just looks weird or unflattering on me I’ve got a weird body shape no bust so everything just looks odd on me.