Hi
This is a last resort I don’t really know where else to turn. In 25 weeks pregnant and I feel my mental health is deteriorating, I spend days in bed crying feeling hopeless and anxious. My partner doesn’t seem to take any notice that I’m struggling and just carries on like everything is fine. I have a 7 year old and I’m trying to hide it from her but she knows something isn’t right. I used to have a real social life but now my friends seem to have disappeared, my parents don’t really have anything to do with me and I just feel so alone and the only person my partner who I feel like I can talk to just pretends everything is ok. I’ve been having irrational thoughts that I can’t do this anymore and I don’t have the support I need, I don’t really know where to turn. Part of me wants to just pack a bag and disappear but I know that’s not fair on my 7 year old. My partner is her step dad and although he’s fantastic he does go to the pub every weekend and last night he came home was not on this planet, woke me up at 1am was talking to himself and shouting I had to ask him to be quiet, then he slept on the sofa and wet himself which he has a tendency to do when he drinks . I woke up feeling hopeless and told him I don’t want this baby with him but in the sense I don’t feel like i can do it with him because he acts like this, I need him to grow up. So now he’s left in a massive strop saying what I said is sick and not taking into account what I have to deal with when he drinks. I just don’t know what to do I have no one to talk to, I’m sorry for the long post I’m just really struggling and hoping someone can send some light my way I guess.