Hit rock bottom

[AussieKoala01]

I have finally admitted to myself that I have hit rock bottom.

My mental health took a nose dive during the pandemic, but it has been a sudden and tragic bereavement (Father) earlier this year that has tipped me over the edge.
I went to see my doctor a few weeks ago and was given an anti D with plans to go back for a mental health plan appointment.
The anti ds have been sitting in the medicine box ever since and I was to anxious to book another appointment.

But yesterday I felt brave and took half of a tablet. I've been wrestling whether or not to take the second half this morning, but have decided to be brave again and do it.

I just want to see colour in the world again and enjoy my beautiful DS and DH and not feel like I'm drowning in anxiety and dispair.
I also really want to have a second child but know that without getting help first I will be constantly at the doctors or using doctor Google throughout the entire pregnancy. So TTC is on the shelf for now.

Not sure why I'm posting this, just to get it of my chest I suppose.
A hand hold would be appreciated too 🥺

im sorry I can’t offer any help I just wanted you to know you’re not alone in mental suffering. I was told I couldn’t have children a few years ago and was so upset. I’ve miraculously become pregnant and you’d think I’d be over the moon but my mental health has deteriorated every since being pregnant and I’ve tried everything, cbt, counselling, hypnotherapy, exercise, medication. I’ve used all my savings trying to get help and have nothing left and I just get worse everyday to the point I think I now have to get a termination next week 😥 mental health is the worst. Reaching a hand

Op take your anti d as prescribed taking half a tablet won't do anything as they normally take about six weeks before you notice a difference and once you notice the difference in your mood and outlook you will wish you had done it sooner. Good luck op.

Thankyou so much for replying, sending hugs across the pond to you both.
@Abee89 I'm so sorry to read your story, please keep speaking with your midwife or gp about how much you are struggling 💐
@Northernsouloldies I thought I would try half for a week to keep an eye on any side effects, but I'll go to a full dose in a few days. 💐

You will probably get side effects for a few days. I've been on and off different anti depressants for years and the first 4 days can be tough, but take them as prescribed and they will start working in a couple of weeks, you won't notice an instant change but one day you'll just realise you've felt brighter and more able to cope. It's a great feeling when that happens.

What have you started taking? How do you feel?

@Ollifer I'm going to work really hard to feel those brighter days ✨️ 💐

@TreeHuggerMum1 I'm taking Sertraline, Im experiencing some side effects but im feeling optimistic. Hopefully they dont increase so i can persevere 💐