Children save us

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Anyone else wonder if they are here simply for the sake of their children?

I honestly think if it wasn't for them then I would best not be here. My husband could find happiness elsewhere (someone else to do the cleaning, washing, cooking etc) . My boss could replace me in a heartbeat and my hard work would live In history.

Just thinking about my 11 and 3 year old learning mummy isn't here now keeps me going though. And that hurts and it surely shouldn't be like this

Doctors are impossible to call and I only ever get message that 'e-consult not available' when I try and sort my own mental health

Yep 🙋‍♀️ they're the only thing keeping me here too. Like you, I plummeted during the pandemic. I was starting to wobble just before because we'd had a v stressful house move. I really needed things to start looking up but then the pandemic happened.

I now just don't even know who I am anymore or who I want to be. Probably not helped by being middle aged. My DC are amazing, so proud of them but I feel utterly hopeless for myself and like you think my DH would be better with someone else.

It's shit isn't it?!

She is the most important person in my life

I feel the same. My son needs me but if anything ever happened to him......my life would be over.

Life is so shit.

Yes. I don't know it's a bad thing per se. It's a (very strong) protective factor.

Yes, I feel this way too. When it boils down to it. I'm also middle aged. I don't feel important to anyone or anything apart from my children. Perhaps if I had a fullfilling career things might appear different...but at the end of the day you are just replaceable. I used to get a degree of satisfaction from my work until I was made redundant. Unfortunately, upon these realisations I have become a bit depressed.