Self harm again?

[sugaryouth1]

I hope somebody can help. See previous posts. But basically husband left. Long story. But I've started self harming again and I can't stop. I did it when I was younger and all this anxiety and pent up rage built up and I cut myself with a razor. And I swore it was a one off. That I wouldn't do it again. I've done it every night. I can't ring the doctor. They'll take my little girl off me. She's lost her daddy. She can't lose me. It's not effecting anything with her. I'm still present. I do everything we usually would. I just can't cope. I've bought more blades off amazon and I'm scared I'm in too deep now

Aww sweetheart. Sending you the biggest hugs.

Call 111 and speak to the mental health option when you feel your about to do it.
You don't need to disclose true info about yourself and having children if you're afraid.

I used to SH too, haven't for years now though. But I found things like flicking a hair bobble which was on your wrist was helpful, music helped a lot, put your headphones in and just lose yourself in it, Do you like colouring or art or reading?

Nothing seems to distract me. It's all I can think about. Literally clock watching till my daughter is in bed so I can do it. I feel absolutely broken

Hey OP, how are you doing now? In a similar position.