Hello. I've just recently gone back to work after roughly 9 weeks off due to post natal depression/ptsd. I know I'm still not feeling 100% but I thought the routine might help a bit. However, now i'm back I feel exactly the same as I did when I initially took the time off.
Im back to barely sleeping, constant panic attacks, forever anxious and worried about everything and generally just feeling like a little black rain cloud is following me around. I think I do a good job of keeping a brave face so my kids and DP aren't affected thankfully but I just feel grim. Part of me wishes I'd not gone back her but it's too late to think about that now I guess. Not sure what i'm looking for on here really, maybe just some advice on how to feel like a functioning human again