How do I approach thinking that I have BPD with my gp without sounding dramatic or stupid. Talking is not my thing and usually i would just suffer in silence or deal with it myself (torture) but it's how I've always been I've got this underlying fear of never being believed, people thinking I'm dramatic. This illness is now taking over my life, it's affecting my relationship and my mood massively, I can switch everything off and not talk to anybody for weeks at a time for no given reason, and just carry on in my own little world, then it'll hit me and I'll beat myself up and think how to get out of the mess I've created then things are 100x worse. I struggle to keep a job for a long period of time, I get restless, and feel stuck it's hard to explain. I've started to do really impulsive things as well stuff I wouldn't normally do, applying for college courses and university and a new job thinking I can manage all 3 🤦🏽♀️ with 4 kids, it is like my brain just switches off and I'm not me then when I come back I'm like WTF. And it's an ongoing circle that I used to be able to manage because I was in denial when my partner used to mention bipolar I would just fly over the handle and think he was blaming me for everything and putting mental illness onto me but now when I sit and look at what I'm doing I need the help, but I'm scared to ask for it because I feel so silly going into the doctors saying I think I have this and that 😳🙄 I'd rather contact a doctor over email, I manage to get a lot more out when I'm typing it