not sure what I’m trying to achieve by posting but hopefully someone has some wise words for me.
I was on sertraline for 2 1/2 years due to perinatal depression. This past year I felt so well and 100% recovered. In the spring I decided to lower the dose from 100 to 50. It went well. Then I missed a GP appt for the prescription renewal and decided perhaps I could just stop it. I finished up the tablets I had and for two months I felt just as good as when on them, aside from some irritability and slightly less patience, but nothing unmanageable. I felt ao proud and happy, thought I had put that chapter of my life behind me finally. I knew I’d always be more at risk for anxiety/depression but I thought I’d be ok for a while. Fast forward 2 months from stopping, one day, pretty much out of the blue, anxiety levels go through the roof. Scary thoughts, low mood, the whole lot presented back uninvited just like that. It felt completely chemical, there was no trigger for it aside from the end of our summer holiday trip. I’m now back on sertraline and feeling the horrendous side effects that come with it. Beating myself up for ruining something that was going so well. Why did I decide to stop?? It’s not like they give out certificates of achievement for it! Feeling really stupid and like I now ruined things for myself again.