CBT

[Knickersinatwist36]

Hi,
I am looking to find out how you know what a reputable CBT practice is. There are so many and I don't know what I'm looking for.

I have long thought I have ADD and have looked into it and think I have strong impulse control issues over spending and food. I know that when I spend and eat a bit of my brain simply switches off (feels like a numbness) and I can spend/eat much more than I should.

The spending is usually shopping but over the last year I have spent a LOT on a gaming app. My husband found out today and is quietly very angry. He suggested counselling and I think he is right. I have so much guilt and shame after I do it. I have turned off in app spending but always just put it back on when it feel 'justified' which it never is.

I'm a real mess, I haven't worked for 16 years because both my children are autistic and have had problems with school attendance and anxiety and I regularly have calls from school to collect them so couldn't work, I would be fired.

I'm at the end of my tether, I hate this about me and I want to change. Please if you have any advice I would really appreciate it.

Thank you

Anyone? Even just a hand hold?

Hi OP
You can search this site for registered therapists:

babcp.com/CBTRegister/Search#/./

(Once you find a name you can then often Google it and they will have their own website.)

Sorry ! Wish you could edit on app - it keeps throwing me out.
Anyway - that should have said a lot of them have their website listed under their registration but if they don't you can usually find them via Google

Thank you so much, have a lovely day.

you didn't specify
where the numb feeling is located, in comparison to your physical body
and you didn't specify
it's size
and you didn't specify
what happens with the numb feeling
as you eat food

Ok so the numb feeling is in my mind. Like I have switched off a bit of me. it's like I can sort of detach from my feelings of guilt /shame/ logic and like a voice is telling me it's ok because the thing I want to do (eat/spend) is ok in that second and it doesn't matter what happens later because the future will sort it out.

The food one is bad because I'm either eating with a ferocious desire or not eating (like 400 calories per day for 6months) my weight fluctuates by about 85 pounds regularly.

The spending affects my relationship with my husband as I don't earn and all his money is joint money and at the moment it is going into a very expensive project that I am doing and will squeeze us financially.

I feel like I can do one area of my life (money, weight, children, household, project, mental health etc.) really well but only one at a time so the others fall apart. I have lists and lists but I'm often so overwhelmed about things that others are able to do that I feel a failure.

I am just lost.

From where in the physical body
does the numb feeling
move into the mind

that is
where is the starting location of the numb feeling
and
how does it move
to get to, and into the mind