I feel empty, don't know who I am and dissatisfied with life

[Poppet626]

Hi All,

I know this my issues are not issues compared with what others are going through but I feel so dissatisfied with myself and life at the moment.

I've worked in office jobs since I was 17 (now 27) and I just feel like I have no talent, no clear career path for myself and I'm just not enthusiastic about anything.

To be honest I constantly feel empty. Anger easily, very low self esteem and low confidence, anxious, very low in mood.. no motivation for anything other than to sit on my sofa and shut myself away from the world which obviously doesn't help but that's all I want to do.

I feel I serve no purpose and have no direction or anything exciting for my future.. I don't know who I am, what I want in life or anything. I am bored to the back teeth of sitting at a desk all day.. I have no joy. I have no qualifications in anything

I feel severe guilt and shame about things in my past and grief for my mum who passed away..

I have considered going back on antidepressants as I don't want to medicate every day but see no other way.. I am also starting some counselling sessions soon

does anyone else feel this way

You're so young! My life looks very different now to when I was 27. Office skills are so transferable - can you look for jobs in a sector that interests you? I.e. you love nature, look for jobs with RSPB, National Trust, Forestry Commission etc. You could end up working somewhere beautiful instead of an office block and making a meaningful difference.

Sorry about your mum, it’s a young age to have lost her. How long ago was it?

Hi,

in sorry you’re feeling like this, I can relate to the feelings of not really knowing yourself and what you like / directions. I’ve ended up doing the job I chose at 16 which I don’t enjoy a huge amount but have no idea what I would like to do / be good at. A lack of self esteem can be crippling.

What was your relationship like with your mum?