First session with a clinical psychologist

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Had a massive wobble a few weeks ago and after years of mental health issues asked for help. So far they mental health service has been really good, I’ve been under the crisis team.
today I had a session with a clinical psychologist and I’m not sure how I feel. She’s Pushing me to tell my partner which I absolutely will not do, I can’t see any advantage in worrying him.
shes also pushing for me to go onto anti depressants which I’m not entirely sure I am comfortable with either. Initially crisis team thought they weren’t necessary.

I feel like I’ve jumped on a train I’m desperate to pull the emergency cord and get off.

is this normal to feel this level of panic?

Take a breath. If you don’t want to tell your partner you don’t have to, that’s your choice and you can tell them when you feel ready or not at all however having a loved one to talk to helped in my experience.
Taking antidepressants can help but if you don’t feel comfortable taking them, don’t. Perhaps do some research on the different ones and go from there. Depending on your concern (anxiety, depression…etc) maybe suggest CBT and see if that’s an option.
It’s normal to worry and panic when you first ask for help so give yourself a break and try to relax, if things don’t work out with this doctor, maybe see if a different one is available to see you, if you feel uncomfortable or like she’s pressuring you, you’re allowed to say so and to see someone else.

Thank you.
You are speaking a lot of sense.
I liked her and was able to talk to her, but did feel very pressured. She’s booked me in to a clinical psychiatrist to discuss anti depressants on Monday. I know they know better than me, ultimately, it’s their job and what they’ve trained to do so I am trying to trust their expertise. I just feel a bit overwhelmed.

I know anti depressants do help people but I’m concerned at finding the right one, the rollercoaster that might be. The cost involved in that. I know they aren’t a fix.