I've put up with this now for a few years and realising it's getting worse and I think it's time to see a gp. I stupidly thought these feelings would go away in time but they've only got worse. I'm anxious all the time, I worry about everything, I've got no patience. I wish I had a I don't care attitude. This is now affecting my life. A few examples are:
Driving. I hate it and haven't drove properly in months. I get anxious everytime I know I have to drive, I can't take my kids anywhere, I rely on my partner to take us places. I just can't do it.
Neighbours. We have loud neighbours. We are on speaking terms but they're so loud. We are respectful neighbours and always have been. I've mentioned the noise and they know they do it and apologise but it continues. Every noise they make makes me anxious, I feel like I can't relax, I worry about confrontation. Years ago I'd speak with them but now I get nervous and it shows. Any small noise we make they moan but think they can do as they wish years ago I'd bang back!
I've stopped walking my dog (who is in training due to slight fear) I've asked people many times don't approach her while I'm training as she doesn't like strangers. She doesn't show aggression but does bark and people will call her names, tell me put her down and all sorts amd I always come back upset because people think she should be able to be stroked by anyone and everyone. I've socialised her from a pup but die to a few bad experiences from other dogs on walks she became anxious. My dp had now had to take on the walks because I just can't do it.
I worry about my kids walking school in the rain, worry about my child going missing, worry about a war that may happen...literally anything. My heart races, I feel sick, I feel angry with myself, I get apprehensive, I'm not sleeping at all. I've had enough. I want the old me back but just don't know how. I don't know how to deal with any of this. What helped you? Did you ever feel like the old you? How do I deal with this? My geart is racing as we speak listening to next doors kids slamming doors and running up and down stairs. I wish I could ignore how I feel.