I’m so depressed by I don’t have the motivation to do anything about it anymore

[Azurehawker]

I’m so deeply depressed at the moment, I’ve been through a really bad few years in my life (bereavement, divorce, child being seriously unwell, failing a degree, having to give up my job are just a few things that have happened over the last few years). I went in ADs last year for a while which did but struggled to keep getting the prescriptions because of the number of drs appointments I had to make, it was just not feasible for me to keep going to appointments just to get the repeat prescriptions. Tired CBT through NHS )over the phone appointments) which I found really unhelpful for various reasons.

I’m really struggling to find a point to life at the moment, life just feels like a never ending struggle. Nothing is good or happy in my life, my house, my job and even my kids just leave me completely overwhelmed and miserable. I have no close family who are able to support me because of issues they have so I am not able to go to them with my problems. How are you ever supposed to get over depression when there is nothing good in your life to get better for?

I just want to reach out to you because I'm surprised & saddened that you haven't been inundated with responses and support.
I can guarantee that what you are feeling is more common than you may realise.
Please be brave and explain all you have said to your GP.

@Azurehawker @Wilff is right. So many people feel this way but you just don't know it. Ask yourself this, to someone else do you look like your coping with life, because you probably do.
I met someone I know out on a dog walk the other week. Now I'm not bothered about telling people when my mental health is bad and when she asked how I was and I told her I've been suffering this year majorly with depression and anxiety I was surprised to hear her response. That she had been suffering also to the point that she had stopped leaving the house. This person looks to have it all together. I find it amazing how when I open up about my mental health how many others say how they are struggling also.
I know its crap but you are definitely not alone. X

what a horrible time you’ve had OP, no wonder you feel so sad

Is there no way you can order repeat prescriptions online/over the phone? Where I am that’s possible but I know different areas do things differently. Can you request?

Aw, OP, it all sounds absolutely awful for you. Are there no counselling people at work? Did the ADs improve the feeling even slightly?

I'm so sorry you are going through this. I've been on antidepressants for 10 years and they have changed my life. I've accepted I need them long term. But it doesn't make me immune from stuff and I'm having a low point at the moment.

What I'd say is intally you need to see a Dr a lot so they can keep an eye on you. But long term they will be on normal repeat. I know people are anti meds a lot. But I think they'd make a big difference. Perhaps you could make another appointment and talk about the challenged of getting the meds?

I do understand when you most need to help yourself you have the least energy and motivation. What support in your life do you have?

Me too.

I'm done with the fight. I'm ready and I'm at peace with it

I do feel the same sometimes. 😕

Yes, I feel worn down, and kind of give up. I find life extraordinarily challenging these days.
Sending love to OP and others in despair. I comfort myself knowing that 'this too shall pass'