It all started on Tues the 13th of June.
I was due to have a growth scan as baby was measuring on the 5th centile. It was flag up after a mistaken booking from my midwife. I already had my 12 & 20 week scan and all was well. This scan was booked by mistake and it was the beginning of a huge domino effect. So me and my husband attended the Fetal Medicine appointment and it's not going well, we have a doctor who to be fair warned us that she is new and would be taking a little longer to scan me as she's in training which was absolutely fine. After 40mins of scanning she couldn't get baby's stomach so she called in her colleague. A senior doctor comes in and takes over the scan, he is much more efficient but quite rough and is explaining to her what he sees which puts me and my husband in panic mode because we don't understand the terminology. He then turns to us and says our baby is on the 5th centile which is a soft marker for abnormalities. We question more and he goes on to say but everything else looks fine profile wise so in his opinion we will just have a small baby.
Both me and my husband walk out of the hospital in silence we don't know what to say to each other and end up in a weird space projecting each others moods.
That evening we have a huge argument which prompts me to call the police because he was being aggressive. Nothing came of it and they took me to my friends house where I stayed for the night. The next day in the evening my ex husband rings me to tell me our daughter is in hospital (we have split custody). My daughter was diagnosed with epilepsy at eight years and has what is called complex epilepsy. This is not our first rodeo with our daughter she has been admitted many times with status epilepticus. This time it was different she wasn't responding to the rescue medication, they had given her all the medication available and nothing was breaking the seizures. She was then put under general anaesthetic and transferred to GOSH were she spend seven days in ICU. My husband at the time booked a flight to Thailand without me know after visiting his stepdaughter in hospital and seeing the state she was in. He booked the flight on the 18th of June and didn't come back till the 28th. He then admitted after I asked him that he had sex with a prostitute. He told me he used a condom but she gave him head unprotected. He went to the clinic twice as he needed to wait for 6 weeks to clear for another test and last week he got the all clear. In between all of this I haven't mentioned that my husband stole over £1200 of our holiday fund to purchase his holiday. My daughter also experienced an episode of delirium after coming out of the anaesthetic. She needed two nurses from the mental health team to support her 24 hours. Me and my ex husband spend the whole seven days by her side we were given accommodation just outside the hospital. The whole of the seven days I was running on little sleep and hardly any food, I was extremely exhausted and stressed. I then had to cope with my missing husband and was totally heartbroken when I found out he stole from us and left me. Since him coming back he has been with me supporting me with the last few weeks of my pregnancy. I am now 41 plus 5 days and baby is not coming. I'm booked for an induction next week. I believe all this stress has caused so much anxiety that my body is not ready. I'm also worried for my mental health after baby is born.