I hate myself

[hoganwirion]

I was given an opportunity at work (involved a lot of stress) and I've quit without thinking things through. Work is unclear about a lot of things and there's not much support or organisation.

I have 2 young dc and the past year has been difficult. I was home with darling twins for 5 years and I worked part time from home for 2 years.

I really hate myself for giving up. I am kicking myself. Feel sick and can't sleep. I feel like injuring myself.

I am so disappointed.

It's not giving up at all! I also have young children and wouldn't even consider taking up a role with more stress, especially if I wasn't entirely clear with the parameters.

I know it's always tough when you're ambitious (as it sounds like you are) to pass up an opportunity - but, from what I'm reading, it doesn't sound like the right opportunity for you, at all.

I hope you realised how much your post helped me. Thank you. Definitely agree with the parameters comment. It needs to be tight.

You didn't give up, you protected and prioritised yourself by sidestepping a whole lot of stress.

You need to be kind to yourself- we all reflect on things we have don and have regrets but it’s not helpful to beat yourself up
Some workplaces are batshit crazy and it’s usually down to poor communication- please recognise it’s not you!
If anything this situation may have focused your mind on what you want and what workplace you work best in.
I look back on times I have tried to make the wrong place or the wrong time work for me - this is a moment in time and it will pass
Take care of yourself, anyone who has looked after twins has life skills many employers would be keen to have in their workplace - be kind to yourself

Thanks so much

@Restinggoddess definitely communication issues.