Not really sure what I want to achieve from this post other than a bit of a vent and to organise my thoughts.
When dd was 7 weeks old dp was diagnosed with a brain tumour. He had surgery in June and is now fully recovered. There is a possibility it may come back and he had a scan this week although we have to wait a few weeks to get the results.
Because of dp’s illness I didn’t go to a lot of the local Mums groups so missed out on my chance to get to know people in my nhs antenatal class (who are local) but I still kept in touch with my nct antenatal class and we meet up regularly (but they’re not local to me, most about an hour’s drive away)
Towards the end of my mat leave I got really bored and a bit fed up at home, was really looking forward to getting to work and seeing my old friends.
I’ve now been back at work for about 7 weeks (I think) but have gone back to a new job (same employer though) I’m missing my old colleagues and the type of work I used to do. In my new job I’m sitting miles away from everyone else so can’t really chat to anyone although the desks will be moved sometime in the new year so we’ll all be together.
For the past couple of months or so I’ve felt really low, I think dp’s illness is still affecting me. When he was diagnosed my world turned upside down within a few hours, this has left me feeling anxious that anything in my world could fall apart at a moment’s notice. I thought I’d dealt with all this but obviously haven’t.
I’m also feeling a bit isolated and am disappointed I haven’t got the support and camaraderie I’d hope for from my new work mates. I know this will take time and the desking situation will help hugely but in the meantime am still a bit wazzed off (to quote my mother!)
Hey ho – onward and upward.