Normal thought pattern or not?

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Life is tricky. I have a child with ASD, adhd, pda and probably odd. I regularly think about killing myself, not a plan, but i feel angry that my family need me and I’m stuck here. Does anyone else feel like this? Or is this a very unhealthy way of viewing the world?

Are you getting any MH support at all? If not you need to speak to someone. It's normal to feel overwhelmed, despair at a situation, but not to think about killing yourself.

Feeling like life is "being stuck here" isn't normal, no
Please, get some help

You have a lot going on and I can imagine that that can take a big toll on your mental health. Do you get any help with your child? Anyone that can give practical or emotional support?

Thinking about killing yourself is called suicidal ideation if I remember correctly and is definitely a sign that you should seek professional help.

You absolutely need to speak to your GP. It’s a logical response to be stressed and anxious, but suicidal thoughts should always be discussed with professionals.

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I have a child with exactly the same issues. I regularly feel trapped in my own life. I don't feel like killing myself (I'm so sorry to hear this for you), but I constantly think about running away. I'm also a lone parent and it wasn't as bad when the kids still saw their dad but when they first stopped seeing him, I regularly felt utter despair that I had no help and no time off. My DD is now in her late teens and recently came back from university for the summer. She's incredibly difficult and demanding and the old feelings came back to me in exactly the same way as before she left. Unfortunately I can't offer any practical solutions but I do understand. Please see someone about your suicidal thoughts (even the GP to get an urgent referral), and if it's any consolation I do completely empathise. It's utterly exhausting being in this position and it feels like it will last forever.