Please help me.
I feel as if I’m drowning. My head is telling me to jump into my car and drive into a wall. That it would be easier if I wasn’t here. My head is spinning with all sorts of thoughts. My husband is at his wits end with worry. I constantly think bad of him, accuse him of all sorts. Affairs, doing this or that when it’s not reality. But when my head goes into a spin, my thoughts are erratic. I tried medication. Did not help. Trying to come off it and really struggling to get off it. Doctors very little help. I’m not surprised there is crazy amounts of suicide when the health care system is the way it is. I’ve tried counselling over the years but don’t think it’s been right.
please help me find the right therapist. Please. I want to continue my life. But sometimes, most of the time my head is telling me to throw it in.