Will it ever get better ?

[MummyOf3LivingByTheSea]

If you have ever been in a depression, how long has it lasted ? Struggling to see the "light at the end of the tunnel" after 4 months of what the doctor says is depression & anxiety.

Hi @MummyOf3LivingByTheSea

I have been where you are and it does get better.

I have recovered from several periods of mental health difficulties over the years. Even though I have actually experienced getting better and can logically try and tell myself I know I will get better, when I am depressed that doesn't help in the slightest. The depression stops you seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. That light is there though.

Can I ask if you are receiving any treatment at the moment, therapy, meds etc?

It's been going on for so long, I feel trapped in my head & like it will never go away.
I thought I was getting better then it all came back, the intense pressure in my head, neck, shoulders & back. The crying. The not talking. The staying in bed. Constant anxiety. I can't do anything or go anywhere it's like torture !
I've been to the doctors a few times, have now been on antidepressants for 2 1/2 months. Perhaps these ones don't work for me.

What anti depressant are you on and what dose? It might be worth speaking to your doctor again as I think after 2.5 months you should be noticing a difference.

For me I did begin to see gradual improvements after maybe 6 - 8 weeks. I always feel worst in the morning and then usually by bedtime I am feeling OK. Over a number of weeks I began to notice that I was feeling OK a little bit earlier in the day.

I feel like the worst mum in the world, my poor kids get nothing from me. I can't do anything because I feel soooooo ill & exhausted & get dizzy and panicky out.
30mg mirtazapine. It was such a big thing taking them in the first place now I'm scared to change to different ones but I know I maybe need to.
I'm so worried about how long it's going to last, I don't want to miss summer and I really need to get back to work as getting more & more in debt each month with no wages 😭

You are a good mum, you are just unwell at the moment. Your kids will be fine.

Do you have real life support? Someone to help with the kids to give you a rest, or someone who can find out if there is any financial support/local groups you can apply for to help you through?

You said you thought you were getting better then it.came back, I have found that recovery is a bumpy road and after a better spell I would have a big set back, but over all after about 8 weeks I could see that there was a gradual improvement.

Sometimes it was.hard to believe I was improving because I felt so hopeless but in the evening when I usually feel a bit more "normal" I could look back and say, yeah today was a bit better than an average day last week.

If you really aren't seeing any improvement soon though I definitely think it is worth speaking to your gp.
I understand how horrible it is to think about having to try a different medication, but it might be what you have to do.

Please keep updating on here x