Whats the point

[nothingformebaby]

Since covid I don't see the point in anything.

I had twins before covid and when they were 2 we locked down. Childcare was expensive so I stayed at home.

Get dressed up? For what? No point trying to impress anyone as they'll do as they please anyway.

I have an ok job, I can work from home. Be with the kids but I don't feel happy. I'm bored but also overwhelmed.

I have everything and I feel like I don't care.

Ha he your job?
I assume the kids are in school?

How long have you been feeling like this? Do you have a partner / any other kids or is it just you and the twins? How old are they now?

My husband and I and the twins.

I was down during lockdown. It was too much being with twins full time without help, before this, I couldn't afford to work, we didn't have any family help.

I got full time work first day they went to school and I was grieving for the first few months. I was home with them for 4 years.

On top of this my new work was very keen for me to train as they are very short staffed. They offered training and I took it on as I'd felt so stifled over the years and wanted the best for everyone.

It was a huge commitment and I wanted to impress first day at work so I signed a training agreement.

It was all badly managed and I felt trapped and overworked. I decided to try and leave the agreement but still work full time.

Was very stressful leaving the agreement. Felt like a divorce. Was threatened with job loss and financial implications.

I'm shattered and still work full time. Now our mortgage has doubled and the cost of living. It all feels relentless.