Too wonder or question (curiosity)

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The moment off feeling happy. Like, is it normal to be waiting for something to go wrong or try to question why life is finally going smoothly? How does a person settle or feel safe/happy without worry?
Especially if there has been alot of trauma.

When someone has experienced trauma they are going to have a heightened awareness of the possibility of it happening again (even if the trauma is a long way in the past and/or the circumstances that led to it can't possibly happen again).

So the mind - and through that, the body - will be alert and constantly scanning for danger which means being able to truly relax and enjoy life in the moment is more difficult. Not impossible but more difficult. It's as though worrying is the default state of mind so being worry free will feel weird.

What's your situation at the moment? What triggers your fear or worrying?

I'm in a good place. I've never felt like this before. Like I've eventually accepted who I am and where I've come from. But that feeling of waiting for it all to be taken is lurking. Its like, don't get too comfortable because it can be taken at any moment.

I can relate to this. I’m sure it was Bill Bryson who observed when in Italy that the locals spoiled themselves and enjoy life and that it’s a very British thing to not be able to do that! And to feel very guilty about doing it. I thought he made a good point. I’m 51 now and happy after a good decade or so of much unhappiness. I’m just going with it and am grateful for it.