I've tried counselling, I'm on medication but I just don't know how to feel good enough. I push everyone away because I don't 'deserve' love or affection. I am really struggling. My confidence is non existent, I feel really low. I don't even want to get up on a morning but I have to because of my DC. My DH is amazing but he doesn't understand. I feel like I'm just a burden to everyone and I don't know how to change how I feel.
I don't even know why I'm posting here. I just need to get it out after months and months of pretending I'm OK.