Wanting to die - feel sad and pointless

[Notworthyofausername]

Another useless thread. I just want to die. I want to not exist here. I was to be invisible and free.

It Hurts me to read this I hope you are okay!! Don't ever give up some one somewhere loves you so much. You should reach out for help, talk to someone xx

Please read surviving to thriving by pete walker.

Please go to A&E and tell them

OP I can remember feeling like this. Things change all the time, things get better. Please talk to someone X

Speak with 111 and ask for some support, OP.

Congratulations for by far the nastiest post I’ve ever seen on mn you absolute dickhead. If your ‘tolerance is low’ for desperate people on the brink of suicide, then do them a favour and fuck off to a different thread instead of belittling them, what tf is going on in your head 😡

@PonyPatter44 Holy shit! What an awful disgusting thing to say! Wow!! So gross!

@PonyPatter44 I hope this wasn't in a professional capacity. What an absolute prick thing to say.

A lot of suicidal people have got to that point thinking that they'd be doing all those people who love then would be better off without them.

You've made me so funking angry. Get off this thread if you have nothing helpful or empathetic to say.

Op, I've felt this before. No feeling is permanent and things will get better, you are important and loved. Please reach out to someone. Take care of yourself.

Things will always get better, even though it may not seem like it right now. Please call 111 or Samaritans and they can help you.

It's just a bad day, not a bad life 🫶🏼

Please try calling/texting the Samaritans or using a mental health app, such as Tapestry.
I am sorry that you feel this. I don’t know you but I feel sure that there will be people who love you and think the world is a better place because you are in it.

just go to the local evangelical church. talk to them, tell all you want to tell them, ask for friends, for someone to pray for you and with you, etc

alongside the therapy you need if you need some. Some people say they rather not existed out of just saying it because find life hard , even if it is loneliness. If it is darker than that, and you need proper psychological help, do it privately. I am not sure what the nhs is capable of right now. very often they mess up people more than helping

People go through this and come out the other side. You can too.
reach out for help, you do matter

you currently feel things will always feel and seem the way you are currently feeling. It’s an indescribable feeling and no matter how many times people tell you it will get better you do not believe them. It’s terrifying to be in that place of darkness and my heart breaks for you op. I wish I could reach out and give you a hug. You are loved and people do care. Life can change so much in just months. Believe me. I have been where you have and right now you are at your lowest. From here the only way is up.

please please seek help. Seek help for those that love you. Seek help because a just because you feel this way right now you will I promise you not always feel this way.

if I had given up at my lowest I never would have had these two amazing young children I have now. I look back and can’t even comprehend my thought process but then but I will always remember that feeling of helplessness.

There is no shame in seeking help so please do. It’s ok to not be ok.

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

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You can also go to the Samaritans website, or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

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Shameful

Disgusting post

@Notworthyofausername is there anyone at all you can reach out to tonight? Have you considered Samaritans or similar? I know you feel like shit but talking really does help. Or just go be with someone, sit in silence, just so you're not alone.

I’m sorry you’re feeling this way. I have gone though periods of being suicidal, it’s more common than many would care to admit please contact The Samaritans or any of the other organisations mentioned, these feeling will pass.

It's normal wanting suffering to end. Life is hard a lot of times. Life can also get better even if it doesn't look like right now. There are lots of people here who are here, right now.

we all care about you here, you are not alone, please seek help if you feel like hurting yourself, none of us want that for you, we all want you to seek help ..

You are all very kind
I am stuck as I have older children. I can't raise them well anyway. Everything is just a burden and I want to escape. I can't "do" life like you're supposed to. I'm not fit for purpose as a human. It's been long enough of trying and failing. I can't take any advice either, and that angers me..I truly despise myself and my brain for being so pathetic.

I feel this op, I’m not suicidal but I can’t wait for my turn on this planet to be done. I have small children, I couldn’t leave them. But I don’t think I’ll feel anything but relief when it’s all over.

I honestly think some people just can’t cope with life the same way, and society isn’t set up, or even enlightened enough to see it, accept it, and adapt for it.

I understand.

I'm in a position where it is true if I were to die my family would be better off . It would solve every problem for everyone including me .

So I absolutely get where you are right now .

I aren't going to insult you by saying phone the crisis team (they're usually useless) or go to
A&e because you and I know you'd sit there for hours , some psychologist will assess you and send you home with a number for crisis team .

All I can say - is don't act rashly . I tell myself this everyday.
When I don't know what to do - the answer is do nothing.

I'm in a financial pickle and my family are not speaking to me over it (divorce , finances ) if I take what's mine I make my ex husband homeless.
If I don't take what's mine - I'll be homeless.
I can't win although I'm trying to find alternative solutions.

Everyone's problems would be solved if I were to take matters into my own hands.
I have a crippling auto immune disease. But I have very good insurance policies and we're I not to be here , my children and my ex would be financially secure .

It's very difficult. I sometimes feel I'm at crossroads. And my
Family hate me anyway because I left .

So I hear you . And I empathise .

My philosophy right now is as I said - when you are undecided- do nothing .

If I talk to anyone it will sound dramatic and attention seeking. I have dogs and the likelihood is if I were to die - even unintentionally- I would not be found for days and my dogs would suffer . So I keep doing nothing .
I'd advise you to do the same op .
Much love x