It is a stressful job.
I'm a nicu nurse on a busy level 3 surgical unit. (38 beds)
I've been in this role coming up to five year. Yesterday I woke up after Friday nights shift and cried, for hours. Until I had to pull my big girl pants up and go back for the Saturday night shift.
We are so short staffed, all the "experienced older" nurses have had enough and left, which often means I am one of the most experienced on shift. We are so short staffed (often 8-10 nurses short!) We are doubling up teeny prem sick babies who should be nursed one to one and it really eats me up they these precious little humans are not getting the care they should be, there is no solution, no one wants to do the job of a nurse anymore.
I also have stuff going on at home, SEN 16 year old with adhd, my brothers involvement with social services and the added pressure they are putting on my,
My person is away at sea now until the end of July, though we speak on video call most days. The last few days I've just sobbed through the call,
I feel poorly with a sore throat and headache,
I'm very tearful and just hiding away atm.
Anxiety is already building about going back into work on tues, after one full day off. I will try and speak to the GP tomorrow but it's a nightmare trying to get through on a Monday morning then im working tues. I just feel like im spiralling,
It's making me feel so sad that I feel like that about my job, I love my job usually.