Wanting to die

[starsparkle08]

I have a 11 year old son . He’s autistic with adhd and severe challenging behaviours , I love him very much but I can’t cope well. Placement team looking for residential but no news yet . I just want to jump from a local bridge

So sorry, didn’t want to read and run. Do you have a friend or family member you can call right now?

OP, do you have a support network (medical or family/friends) that you can call right now? Has something particularly triggering happened today? Please get in touch with people close to you that are in a position to help you right now.

Couldn’t read and run. Please call someone for help.

raising neurodiverse kids can be shit. Really fucking shit at times. And that can’t be sugar coated. But I do promise you, this will pass, it will get easier. Nothing lasts forever. Just focus on making it through the next hour, then the one after that, then the one after that. Don’t think about tomorrow, or the next day or anything like that. Just get yourself through the next hour. One at a time 💐

OP I hope you have some support network around you. Please call someone for help. Samaritans might be able to offer some support. It's really hard with kids with additional needs, you are amazing even if you can't see it at the moment.

I’m going to call social worker Monday . He goes to respite then . He’s so racist to his carers which upsets me greatly . They are very patient with that aspect of things but also are quite lazy doing things with him , ie they just drive him around in their car during respite . When he goes overnight respite at least they have the air b and b as a base but I always worry they will call .
the thing is if my son did go to residential I would feel my life to be over . I just wish I could have the lethal injection . I’m under the mental health team but no one can solve this

Sorry to hear of things sound super tough for you right now. How are you feeling today?

I'm sending you positive vibes x

As you are under the mental health team, have they given you a number for a crisis team? If not, call the team tomorrow and ask for it.

Tell them how you are feeling, you need the help! It can also help to get you the additional support you need. They can provide support in getting you the respite care, they can get you support in signposting you to a local support group with other parents going through the same. They can help you get therapy, or give you medication to help you handle the pressure.

There is always the samaritans you can call too, or use their chat function on the website.

Do you have family/friends that can offer some help?

You do NOT have to go through this alone.

Going through something similar. You're not alone x

What a horrendous situation. No wonder you're completely &'utterly overwhelmed, mentally & physically exhausted. ND kids require next level parenting and it's so incredibly hard & relentless.

You're feelings are entirely understandable giving the circumstances.

I really hope that you both get the help that you need.

@starsparkle08 How are things for you now? 💐

Hi @Sausager things are in some ways a bit better . Though I’m waiting for results of a mri head scan as hopefully to rule out ms .
Thankyou for asking and hope your well yourself x