I have name changed, I don't want this linked to my usual user name as I have friends who use MN too.
I feel almost at rock bottom, I lost my husband last year and I was already struggling with everything that happened when my adult daughter received a letter after a recent scan to say the findings are being discussed at an MDT. She's scared and I am doing my utmost to reassure her and support her but I am angry. Angry and scared. Scared and alone. I go to bed hoping I won't wake up. I wake up hoping I won't be here tomorrow. I have no faith in my GP surgery and no option to change to another surgery. I am trying very hard to see good in every day but I am failing miserably, that makes me feel like I am letting DH down. He saw positive in every day. But I don't have anyone to offload on and I don't know what to do. Sorry, this is jumbled but my head feels jumbled. My whole being feels jumbled and I want it to stop.