I don't even know where to start.
My 19 year old daughter became unwell at the end of December 2022. She became paranoid, having delusions, panic attacks, became incontinent, stopped sleeping, stopped eating etc. she would sit on the edge of her bed for sometimes 18 hours and just stare at the floor.
I took her to the GP in December and she was prescribed Sertraline. She did not tolerate that very well and it made her mental health worse.
She thought people were out to kill her. If she couldn't see someone, she thought they were dead. She thought people were on our back garden, at her window, hiding behind her curtains, on the landing. She was hearing things that weren't happening.
I tried to get her help through the Early intervention for Psychosis team. They came out and concluded she wasn't suffering from psychosis.
She got even worse and I ended up taking her to A&E at the beginning of February. While we were at the hospital, she thought the electric was going to go off. She was prescribed Diazepam to relax her. I wanted her admitting to hospital at that point as I knew how bad she was but they didn't want to do that.
By the middle of February, she was too unwell, her body was rigid, feet and legs swollen from not moving, her heart rate was 140bpm, BP was high. There were a couple of paramedic call outs but she was never taken in.
Finally, a nurse who was visiting her called an ambulance. That was the most horrific night of my life. We had to drag her out of the house and into the ambiance. She was screaming and kicking because she was so scared but she needed help. She was becoming violent and lashing out through fear. At one point, her eyes rolled back and I thought she was dying. It looked horrific and I can't get that image out of my head. It's hard to even write about it.
At hospital she needed IM Lorazepam due to the state she was in. She thought every single person she saw was out to kill her. She ended up staying on an acute ward for 5 weeks, until a psychiatric bed became available.
She was transferred in April and by this point, she had improved somewhat. She was still incontinent and not walking. She was talking by this point though. She was on Mirtazapine which seemed to really help her appetite and mood. She lost 2 stone in 2 months due to not eating.
Daughter is making progress in the sense that she will now go out on day trips with the nurses and is not so frightened anymore but she has become mute. She won't even talk to me and her sister when we visit her. When I talk to her on FaceTime, she looks at the floor and won't interact. She is like it with everyone now.
She has also lost a lot of hair and I don't know if that's down to her medication or stress but if it carries on, she will end up with no hair left.
I guess I just wanted to get it all out and hopefully chat to other parents who have been through something similar. It's heartbreaking and I can't seem to see an end in sight. I'm scared she won't get better and won't talk again.
I should add that my daughter has a moderate learning disability and possible Autism (waiting to be assessed).