Am I going crazy?

[Olimar]

Mumsnet think I am, they deleted my last thread. Posters on there wanted me to call helplines, but I can't do that, it will get me locked up. What can I do to stop these people invading my brain, but not be thought of as crazy?

I think you need to speak to your gp. I've had similar kinds of experiences and I have Schizoaffective disorder which is basically psychosis with bipolar. Not saying that you have my disorder at all but...
You could be in temporary psychosis which is easily curable with medication if caught early enough.
I've had all kinds of symptoms including intrusive thoughts telling me to kill individuals (which I fought very hard not to do as I would never wish harm on anyone) and been very unwell yet never been sectioned- it's actually very hard to get sectioned as there aren't enough beds.
If you are willing to follow a treatment plan at home that's what a psychiatrist/ dr would prefer you to do.
I know it's hard to believe but the people invading your brain are actually part of your own subconscious and it's the psychosis illness trying to trick you. You have to fight it by: ignoring the voices / thoughts, starting anti psychotic medication & talking to a healthcare professional (seriously I did and they weren't shocked at all).

Please phone / email/ or speak to your gp receptionist tomorrow about this urgently & let me know how you get on.
Good luck xx

I think you need help. You may not want it and it may not be convenient, but you need help.

Btw I hate to say I'm mad or crazy as I'm not.

I prefer to say the truth which is that I have an illness.

@Olimar let us know how you get on x

I've been sectioned. Currently on my second night in a&e waiting for a bed. So they have succeeded in their plan to get me locked up

You are not mad or crazy! People who are mad or crazy don't ever ask the question if they are and you have.

Your in the best place. Get some rest when you get a bed m, explain how you feel and do what is best for you

It’s not a plan. You aren’t well and this is the way to get you treatment. Sending you best wishes.

I feel for you - it’s very scary. I got sectioned a few months ago and was so confused and frightened. However once I got to a mental health ward the nurses, doctors and even the other patients were fantastic. I’ve had so much support and help and in hindsight can see that’s what I needed. There is a way through this even if you can’t see it clearly just now, I promise, and sectioning is really just a way of ensuring you get the help you need and deserve. Hope you get well soon.

Third day and I'm so bored. No one believes me, they keep saying I need to get better before I can leave. But I am better, I feel fantastic . It's great when they take me outside, I can get energy from the sun.

Why are you in hospital if you feel good?

@wurtle because the social workers are controlling my brain, trying to make everyone think I'm crazy, because they want me locked up

I don't like social workers either. We have had couple of times dealings with them. It really feels like they are going to grill you.

Social workers don’t want anyone locked up. That’s your MH issues speaking. I’m not sure this thread is helping you OP.

Hi @Olimar I think you need to look at your stay in hospital as a chance to rest & recover.. after a while you will honestly feel less paranoid and happier.

I've been here a week now. I don't need to rest, I have so much energy, I just want to do everything. But it's so boring here the staff don't even talk to me they just sit on their phones, meanwhile I'm going to jump on the bed to see what they do 😸