I need a kudos

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All a bit too personal for Facebook etc

But what a bloody week I've had!

I have pulled every ounce of inner strength to keep going.

I knew I had inner strength when my father died suddenly of a heart attack in front of me, my mother and my husband when I was 25, in my home on my sofa.
When my mum had cancer a year later
When I had a miscarriage in my first pregnancy
When my husband left (infidelity that was gaslighted for a year) when my daughter was 8 months old
When my first Mother's Day and birthday as a mum were after he'd left.
Inner strength to eventually chuck an ex abusive, narcissistic boyfriend (after being single after the husband)

This weekend though! Still a single parent to one DD, she had her 10th birthday on Monday, also the day of the schools residential. Had to say happy birthday to her then wave her off at 7.45am not to see her until tomorrow.
We had her birthday celebrations a few days early (single mum trying to make it special) she also had a karate competition on the Sunday (my heart was pounding for her!) I also competed in karate on the Sunday but only had a few days notice for my category.
Then the cat is urinating blood, she is 17 and used to go to the vets regularly but I stopped taking her to reduce her stress.
They had to sedate then anethestise her because she hates it so much to get her bloods.

Worry about the cat, worry about by daughters trip, worry because she tells me on Friday night that she's being bullied. Worry about her doing herself proud at the competition, worry about my own nerves at competition. Worry about making her birthday special, worry because we are short staffed at work. Also had to prep all her birthday bits balloons/ presents/ cake/ party. Make sure we both practice for comp. And pack for her trip.

Everything has gone to plan and I can relax except the cat isn't recovering well from the procedure and the VERY special cherry on the cake...

I left the bathroom light on and windows open last night by mistake. I had a couple hundred thunder bugs in my bathroom. Flying insects are my 'get me out of here' phobia, I just cleaned them all up and was nearly sick

Im all alone in the house for another night. Someone tell me well done and re-assure me my cat will be ok please!!!!

Thank you if you've read, it was good to write it all out!

Well done! Your cat will hopefully be on the mend soon.

I was also spending the weekend anticipating DD mood swings due to all the excitement and nerves she had for her big events, she loved it all and I think the trip is going well but she had a few 'overwhelmed' outbursts over the weekend to navigate with her! She was also upset about the cat, the blood was probably caused by stress from my DD sleepover the week before with a delayed reaction to the cat holding her wee's.
I told DD it was my response and I should have moved her litter tray upstairs. She's had antibiotics for UTI infection

Oh OP, I hate feeling like this. Its like the feeling if holding the world together. Your lovely cat is in the best place...remember its not bad news unless they say its bad news. So hang on in there....

Well done for everything you've achieved so far. There really is no need to worry...most things never turn out to be as bad as you feared. And let's face it, you've coped so well with terrible things in the past that even if they are bad you have skills to get through it.

While all this is going on remember to look for the good in situations it'll keep your chin up x

Kudos to you op. Hope your cat is OK.

Oh my lord that's quite a week, and you're nailing it. Bucket loads of kudos to you!