Pain

[thesilentonex]

I'm so broken. Riddled in pain and hurt that no one can see. Everyday I'm just trying to survive rather than live. I cry every morning and numb it out the rest of the day pretending to everyone everything is fine. I struggle to see things ever getting better for me. I hurt so so deep there's just no fix

Physical or emotional pain? Why are you pretending everything is fine?

Emotional. I've been in and out of pain finding ways to cope for years. I'm judged my family are very different from me I'm very sensitive and fragile and they are all very tougher skinned "snap out of it" type of attitude. I don't want them to know about my problems because I just become top gossip, my mum has a tendency of getting a thrill out of having a gossip about me and my siblings. It's embarrassing when you tell someone you think you can trust something in confidence and next minute all the extended family know. I feel so alone and trapped in life

Do you live with your family?

You'll know from a lot of threads on here (especially "Stately Homes") that people often have less than ideal relationships with their parents and siblings and that's OK - there's no law to say you have to get on with them, or visa versa. You are under no obligation to share information with them that they are likely to use against you or to break your confidence.

How old are you?

Hi I just read your post, how are you feeling now, hope you are ok.