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Feeling dreadful

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Sweetsweets · 06/05/2023 10:03

Sorry I wasn’t sure what topic subject to put this under because there are so many points to it, so I’m 48 years of age single parent to 21 and 14 yr old, just forced myself out of a 4 yr long up and down toxic relationship with a man I left my husband for, who promised the earth and delivered nothing! My issues are…. I feel like I’ve nothing to look forward to everything seems so overwhelming and depressing I’ve worked since the age of 14 work full time currently own my own house find the cost of living crippling so have a second job and see most of it robbed in tax! My roof is leaking and I don’t know where to get the money….. it makes me wish I didn’t bother to be independent when I see so many women similar but on benefits having Botox false mails, lip fillers new cars ect….. I just feel deflated I’m not the bitter jealous type…. But since these life changes like being single ect I just feel there’s no light at the end of the tunnel I don’t have many friends mainly because I was married for 25 years then with someone controlling for 4 years…. But I keep thinking I should of just stayed with him because it was better than how I feel now…. I cry most days my family aren’t supportive infact my narcissistic mother loves it when I’m on my knees…. I just feel fat, worthless, and sad, if it wasn’t for the children I wouldn’t continue living! But they need me. My daughters going away to live in July so I’m dreading that, I just want to know if there’s any hope? Can anyone relate? Sorry I’ve always just got on with things until now!! 🥲

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PeterLemonJello · 07/05/2023 13:57

Hi there. I'm sorry you are feeling this way. It can feel overwhelming when you have so much going on at the same time. I try to focus on one thing at a time. Easier said than done I know, and of course there is hope. Can I ask, was it mutual to end your 25 year marriage?

Sweetsweets · 07/05/2023 18:23

Thank you…… no it was my decision I had been unhappy for many years but didn’t want to leave because of the children!

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PeterLemonJello · 09/05/2023 14:21

How are you feeling today? @Sweetsweets

Sweetsweets · 09/05/2023 20:57

Ok thank you, I’ve kept busy! Helps x

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