I was in a very toxic relationship for 3 years he never really committed to me yet I adored him he ended it 8 weeks ago which wasn't normal because he has done it over and over. This is the first time he's cut me out in every way. My mental health declined more and more as he chipped away. I now see it was toxic but I'm in a really low place it feels like I start feeling better and then hits me like a ton of bricks I'm so depressed lonely and keep having awful memories which are now adding up to lies and manipulations but at the time I didn't see it I feel so much shame