Things are very bad.
I have been so unhappy for so many years.
On paper I sound a success, great job, ‘d’p, 3 lovely kids, nice house.
But I am so dreadfully dreadfully lonely and feel so unloved.
The lies, gaslighting, debt caused from my soul mate of 15 years has finally broken me.
I don’t see a future for me, put off ending it for my kids and mums sake. Now I don’t seem to care.
I can’t take another day of being stuck in the house wfh, never seeing anyone but kids and p, day in day out.
I spend my days thinking about ways of ending it all.
I look dreadful. I have only met a couple of friends a couple of times since before covid.
I feel absolutely hopeless.
Dont know why I am even posting. Suppose I just needed someone out there to hear me.