My second child was born 3 years ago. Looking back, I’m sure I had PND, I really struggled for a good six months. It’s not been as bad since. But… I’m just unhappy. All the time. I can enjoy an activity, taking my kids out or meeting a friend for a coffee. But in between that and every night when I sit down I just feel…morose. Just down, unhappy. I haven’t worked since second was born, I’m due to go back to work in a couple of months and while I think that will probably be good for me, I’m also worried that it will make things harder. I’m overeating, really struggling to cook, meal plan, keep the house in any kind of order. I have one child at school, the younger has a day and a half at nursery so I do get some time to myself. I’m exhausted all the time, I fall asleep most afternoons (kids both sleep well). I function - the kids are always in clean clothes (straight from the laundry basket, I can’t seem to get clean clothes back in drawers), they’re at school on time, the bills are paid. My friends would express surprise that there’s a problem, my husband certainly knows I’m struggling but doesn’t really get it (he ends up doing the majority of cleaning, tidying, on top of long hours at work). My kids are happy, but I’m not a very good parent at the moment, I struggle to do anything more than put the TV on while I scroll on my phone.
I just don’t know whether this falls under “give yourself a talking to” territory or “go see the GP” territory.