What's the best self help you've found?
I've always been quite a negative person (one of parents is too, wondering if it's genetic/learned) and have been treated for depression 20+ years ago.
Haven't been on ADs since, have tried to manage it myself. I do all the things we are advised to do - arrange to see friends/do nice things, get fresh air daily, walk, exercise, eat nutritious food.
I even manage to fake "being positive" a lot of the time, but I can't deny in my head it's just swimming with negative thoughts.
Objectively I have the ingredients for a good life - no money worries, dc doing well, in a long marriage which isn't great but I have no idea if it's my DH who really isn't right for me or if it's what's in my head that ruins a potentially good relationship, IYSWIM. We have common interests etc, can have a laugh etc but no intimacy (but then who would want to sleep with someone who's miserable?)
Have sought counselling recently through GP surgery and had assessment and they asked if I think I need relationship counselling or counselling for my low mood, and I honestly have no idea which is the root cause 🤷🏼♀️ I find fault all the time with my DH, there's a long list of things he does that annoy me but I don't know if it's me over reacting.
The counsellor asked what I want to achieve and basically I just want to focus on the positive things, let go of minor irritations, be happy go lucky! Is that possible? Or is it ingrained in some people to be bleak forever?!