I'm so annoyed with myself, how have I got this bad again. I feel I should just give my head a shake 😞. I struggle to express how I feel to everyone around me but this is how I feel in my own words.....
I do not dare to exist, too hope,
You are the jailor of my future, the torturer of my past,
You suck the life out my present, I can not breathe, I can not live, I can not plan, I can not hope,
I cry, I deflect, I twist my mind till I can think no more,
You are my downfall, you hold me back at every twist and turn.,
You never sleep, you never quit, you are the chains that bind me, consume me and never die,
I hate you with all my being, but still you walk beside me every day,
I can not be free, I can not be me, I am forever your prisoner but I am tired, so very tired...