Sick of it all

[Lemons8519]

As the title says really. I'm absolutely at my wits end. I live with my dh and ds who is 2 (will be 3 in a few months). I've posted on here before as i've really struggled with being a mum and thinking about suicide (no plans, just thinking about it). I've been feeling better on that side of things, maybe due to the sertraline i'm on but i'm still not enjoying life. I'm so so bored. I'm exhausted. The house is an absolute tip even when i've cleaned it. So much work needs doing here but neither of us has the energy or motivation to do anything. My son's behaviour at the moment is horrific, it was a few months ago too but it got better, now it's like a switch and overnight he's horrible again. No idea what I'm wanting here i just need to vent somewhere as just feel so angry

Please go back to your GP.

Sorry to hear you are having such a rubbish time. Young children are so tiring and it sounds as though you have already had a really hard time postnatally.

Your little one is right in the toddler stage. Toddlers are hugely tricky - often temperamental, always exhausting . It is impossible to keep on top of all housework / house decorating when looking after the whirlwind that is a nearly 3 year old. Life is not a race / competition . This too will pass, things will change again.

Do you get any time to yourself ? Is your son at nursery? You need and deserve regular breaks even if they are small- child free time to have a coffee/ walk / slump on sofa.

Chatting again to your gp may be helpful.

Sending you a hug 🦋💐💐

Thank you.
He goes to a childminder whilst I'm at work. My dh is good at giving me 'me' time but I always feel guilty as the house is just so messy. I also feel like I need to spend more quality time with my son but if I'm honest I'm not enjoying being with him for the most part as it's just such hard work and so much aggravation and i can't cope with the constant nagging, screaming, throwing etc. I must be missing something or doing something very wrong as many people go on to have a second...how on earth do they manage!?