Well this will be depressing.
I am v.self harming at the moment, I had to go to A&E on Friday because of it and I have something big in my head that I want to do which would I suspect require professional wound care.
I would quite like to take an overdose as well, but am holding out because what I want to take is dangerous and I suspect my DF would probably leave me if I did.
I hate myself for this, and I feel like everyone would be better off if I just fucked off, I can't see how I can make DF happy these days because its all so grim.
At the moment I am holding on, I am doing fabulously on placement and I have my scrummy friends but I just wish everything could stop and restart in a different time and place with a different me.
I do see someone about this - and i am not depressed or no tablets.