Could it be ADHD not depression?

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I'm 31 and I remember since being a kid I've always felt different, I struggle to take in information and focussing at school was a nightmare. I didn't do great in my GCSE's at all. Maths is an impossible subject for me, I generally break out in a sweat when asked a simple math question. I struggle to read books, I try so hard even when I'm really interested n actually wanting to read it, my mind will still wonder off somewhere else and I have to try force it back all the time, its so frustrating. Sometimes I will have to read the same page over and over as I don't actually take it in the first few times due to thinking of other things. I've always had obsessions with clothes having to fit 'perfect' not too tight not too baggy else I almost get angry at the clothes and my body. Bra's are a nightmare I've taken to sport crop top bra's now as it's the only thing I can be comfortable with. I have a thing about my bed sheets having to be perfectly tucked in, mattress against the headboard no gap, and duvet fitting the sheet in each corner properly. I can't sleep otherwise as I can't stop thinking about it, despite it making no difference to my comfort at all!! I have intrusive thoughts all the time, I obsess over my partner being sexual with previous partners n play it out in my head like torture, no matter how hard I try to stop myself. I go through stages of being super happy and excited for life, to being so down and depressed I have days I don't even want to be here, but for no reason most of the time. I'll clean the house for hours n hours and obsess over all the intricate details til I exhaust myself, and then leave it for weeks until I gather the energy and motivation to do it again. I've always been diagnosed with depression/anxiety (used to take sertraline but currently off those as I'm pregnant) but I'm starting to think it's not at all and might be ADHD? Just wanted some strangers thoughts on the Internet really until I have the courage to reach out to my GP and wait 2 years for an appointment lol, not sure how they go about next steps to help me? I just feel like I'm in a constant struggle with my own mind, it's really hard to explain but I'm hoping someone reads this and relates and can advise me a little?

Sounds more like OCD.
Google "pure OCD".

It does also sound a bit like inattentive ADHD too, including processing delays (common in ADHD).

sounds very like my daughter who was diagnosed with ADHD, however she stopped taking her Ritalin and her new GP at Uni has recently started her on Sertraline. Living with ADHD can make you depressed and anxious too so it can be a bit chicken and egg.

I was going to say Pure OCD too as reading the OP it was like reading the story of my life.

I do have ADHD and OCD and unfortunately they can come together in a not so neat package, symptoms can intertwine and all become very confusing.

The intrusive thoughts are typical of OCD and the difficulty to focus is typical of ADHD. I'd go to your GP Aand start badgering him for a referral asap, good luck

You sound very similar to me, I have Autism and ADHD.

OCD traits are common in those with ADHD.
My psychiatric report said that further appropriate diagnoses would be OCD and social phobic anxiety disorder but that my ADHD diagnosis already explained the OCD traits and my autism diagnosis explained the social anxiety, so those diagnoses weren’t necessary.

I really do wonder whether I do in fact have OCD though, but I don’t have compulsions (unless tics count) so maybe not.
However. I do at times/often spend a ridiculous amount of time obsessing and googling about whatever new fear has taken over my brain (health or friendship fears usually). This can go on for hours and hours and for weeks at a time with me looking for evidence and/or reassurance until the obsession wanes off for a while before returning a few months later.
But I have been told that these symptoms are part of ADHD.

It’s EXHAUSTING whatever it is!

ADHD and OCD can appear together which makes things very difficult for someone living with it. I can see traits of both here.