Feel at crisis point. Need to see Dr. Got to wait over a week.

[delilabell]

I have anxiety and ocd. Have felt myself sliding for a month but at point now we're u need help. Phoned drs and I can't get an appt except a phone consultation in a weeks time.
Said if I need urgent to phone crisis line. If I so will they get s.services involved? I'm scared they will.

Could you try calling 111? They can sometimes arrange appointments with out of hours doctors.

I have been to my doctor for mental Heath issues and they didn't make a referral to social services - they saw that I was doing the right thing in getting it treated and so there was no need.

Having been involved with a school and having heard about what's referrals are made to social services and nothing done, I can guarantee that getting yourself the medical help you need is not going to be too if their list.

I know an unusually high number of social workers (socially rather than through work) and I know they do their best to support families who are referred - they aren't trying to split families up

Basically, what I'm saying is - the best thing you can do for you and your family is getting the medical help you need, whether that's from a GO, out of hours or the crisis line

Could you call the gp back up and explain it's an emergency regarding your mental health and you need to speak to a gp much sooner ? I burst out crying once on the phone about my anxiety because they were saying they couldn't get me in, they gave me an appointment that day after I was so upset

Phone back again and tell them it's really urgent . They may have a system where appointments are held ie unbookable but only released for absolute emergencies. Failing that please ring the crisis team .

When I phoned on Thursday I said how awful I felt, how low and that I'm really struggling. II said I need to speak to a Dr about increasing my tablets as I can't go on like this. They said that was the earliest appt . I could phone the crisis line if I feel suicidal but just to talk to anyone at the mmomentas it's better to talk.
I tried to phone on Monday but the line was so busy it automatically kept hanging up.
I'm alone with the children today. I'm having to do everything to keep me busy as the moment I start giving my brain space i have thoughts of all the worst moments of my parenting and am overwhelmed by the feeling of butterflies in my tummy

Would a call to he Samaritans or similar be useful if you feel like talking would help? They won't be able to help with medication, but they will listen

I had a breakdown in 2016. Lasted 6/7 months. My kids were about 10 and 13 then. I had crisis home treatment team out twice weekly. Never one mention of social services.

Thank you @Ilovedogs1 I really appreciate your honesty.

@delilabell how are you?

In my previous message I forgot to say I'm actually in another mental health crisis now with OCD /depression so your not on your own. Presently 5 weeks into this one. Obviously my kids are older now but do you find your OCD episodes reacurre every so often?

Yes I do. My ocd is based around my children dying and I feel the intrusive thoughts coming back about them.
Thank you for being so honest.
I've spent 6 hours today trying to speak to someone. Being passed from one person to another. I've also told work I can't work this week.

@delilabell it really is hell. Dont know about you but I'm so tired yet I can't sleep properly. I've had a lot of suicidal thoughts today but really I know that's not the answer. Its awful how your own mind can be your own enemy.

Hi op. How are you?

Thank you for asking. I'm ok. Good and bad days. Tablets have been increased but got to wait until the 7th of June to start counselling. I've got another phone consultation on thursday so will see what they say.

@delilabell I'm still having a tough time aswell. My meds have just been increased also. What meds are you taking?

I'm so sorry to hear that. I'm on Escitalopram and pregablin but they want me off the pregablin asap

If you find talking helps, there are services you can use anonymously

CALM have a helpline and a web/WhatsApp chat

Saneline have a phone line (possibly other options)

Samaritans

I'm under CMHT atm. It's just so hard isnt it when you feel so anxious and low day after day.

It's really good to hear you are doing reasonably ok, and please be careful coming off the pregabalin. Slowly does it, in my experience.

When I came off pregabalin at the beginning of the year, I followed the plan from my GP surgery that the pharmacy team gave to me. Basically it was a gradual tapering over about 6 weeks. It would have been pretty tough otherwise.

It was the pharmacy team lead I dealt with, who does medication reviews, not a nurse or GP. She was bloody lovely. She would talk to me for up to half an hour about my meds and why I was on them, and side effects etc; whereas I'd be 'lucky' to get a few minutes with a GP once in a blue moon.

Wishing you well