Apologies in advance for the long post...
My husband and I have separated. Due to our home being tied to his employment this has left me and 3 children homeless, at the councils mercy. Every letting agent and private landlord I have contacted have turned me away as my income is not high enough even with UC and my wage combined, we are currently on the housing register in band b but have no temporary accommodation available so I have no other option but to let my children sleep at his while I sleep on my parents sofa.
The whole situation has got too much for me now and my mental health has taken a serious decline. I was previously an inpatient years ago due to a breakdown and I can feel myself heading the same way again. All my housing officer tells me is 'it's a waiting game', me ex tells me it's only me that feels this way and Im the one making everyone else miserable with my feelings getting in the way.
I don't know what else to do or where to go I feel like such a failure as a mum and I can't see a way out of this black hole. My mind is telling me everyone would be happier if I removed myself from the picture and these thoughts are scaring me.
Does anyone have any experience of a similar situation? Would it be easier if I just disappeared? I'm heartbroken and don't want my children growing up without me but if I'm making everyone else miserable I feel like this is now my only option.