I've been a long term sufferer of depression, taken the same medicine and off for about 10-15 years now.
The only way I can describe how I feel is that metaphorically I feel like I'm walking on a path, it's pitch black apart from behind me so I can't see the next step, no idea what I'm heading into... I've achieved some big major life goals over recent years like marriage, house, child, steady but stagnant career that's a bit meh but I'm also not happy with a number of things that I have no influence over and struggle to accept this.
Writing this makes me think, well that's simple, I just need a new big goal but I can't think of anything, I'm so unmotivated by anything and everything, probably part of the depression but what to do, how to move on and get through this?