Hi all.
To keep the story short, about a year ago I owned a home with my now ex partner. We had been together for 8 years until I found out he cheated, so I left. We spent months arguing with eachother through solicitors, as he attempted to say I wasn’t entitled to any equity; luckily legally I was, and this was settled in the end, but it was pure torture throughout the process; especially as he was still living in the house and refusing to sell it.
A year on, I have a new partner who I am about to move in with (moving into his flat); my ex partner is with the girl he cheated on me with and is having a baby.
Things have moved on, and I don’t miss or think about my ex, I just mourn the life I thought I had. It scared me how one minute everything was ok and the next my life was tipped upside down.
I am excited to move in with my boyfriend but I have really low days and don’t feel good enough or interesting enough. Sometimes I wonder why he’s with me.
On my low days, I don’t want to communicate with anyone. I’m tired. I completely shut off. Which makes my job as a teacher difficult. I can’t remember the last time I genuinely smiled.
It’s like my body has gone into protection mode and shuts down. I can’t watch TV without losing focus. I can’t go clothes shopping as I have no idea what my style is. I’ve just lost myself.
does this sound like depression? Thanks.