Wtf am I supposed to do

[rugfire]

I am so low. I would never end it all because of my kids but I spend so long each day thinking how absolutely lovely it would be to be dead. I actually envy people who have the guts to act on feelings like this because I know I never could and I feel doomed to be depressed forever

It wouldn't be lovely at all though. It would be permanent, unlike the feelings you are having.

What do you do? What have you done so far? How much input form mental health services are you getting? I'm not meaning to sound like I am challenging you but I don't want to suggest you speak to X of you have already done that and seen Y and Z too

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I have had a couple of times like these, but not done it because of the wreckage it would put on my adult DD.

I actually wondered about ringing her up and asking for her permission to do away with myself. I think even I realised that was disordered thinking.

Antidepressants have got me out of this hole.

In the meantime, just try to get through today. It’s so hard to live like this.

What is triggering you OP?

Thanks for replying. I'm ok. I don't know why I feel like this, I'm on ADs for at least 18 months now

When did you last speak to your doctor? Maybe a change in meds would be helpful? Are you getting any other help?

I get the way you feel atm. I am in a depressive episode . It's not that I want to be dead because I dont but it's not knowing how long I'll feel like this