Felt the worst person ever suicidal thoughts

[Alicew00]

My heads a mess. I left an abusive relationship last year and my friend introduced me to a real nice guy. But the last few weeks he's been around me too much, he doesn't get that I need space. He thought I was breaking up with him because I'm exhausted with an iron deficiency and starting a new job. Apparently I wasn't doing enough for him even though we cuddle all the time and went out for dinner the week before. I ended it between us because he was getting mean about me and he took the break up very bad.
I told my family we broke up and my mum said she doesn't understand me and he'll find someone who'll appreciate him. I said yes I hope he will too.
But the way she said it made me cry. I felt the worst person in the world and I got suicidal thoughts :'( just wanted to end my life
I was happy now I'm miserable again.

It did not feel right to you so you were right to end it and regain your personal space. your mum is only seeing it from the outside and what from you tell her she was not living your life.
when you have been in an abusive relationship you are at risk of falling into the same relationship again so you did well to see red flags.
be proud and be glad you are not in a bad relationship he may have been a good man to some but to you it was not right
love and hugs

I think you need to stay single for a while. You would also benefit from doing the freedom programme www.freedomprogramme.co.uk/

If your mental health is bad you need to make an appointment with the GP. If you feel suicidal contact on 116 123 from any phone or take yourself to A&E.

This guy might sound perfect to others but what people show others isn't always their true selves. You know what behaviour you are prepared to tolerate. Don't allow anyone to treat you badly or overstep your boundaries. I had a perfect, charismatic and charming boyfriend once, everyone loved him, I still have the scars. He was a nasty bastard.

He said he was insecure about me possibly leaving that's why got mean. Should I believe it?

I will look into it thank you

He keeps telling me to say it's over or not right now

When you say got mean what did he say / do?

He sounds very emotionally manipulative @Alicew00.

The thing is this really is as good as it gets and it doesn't sound right. He should be on his best behaviour so early in a relationship.