Sexual abuse?

[BigmummaL]

I am 27 and am currently studying for a hypnotherapy diploma. Since I have started doing this I have started questioning myself and my life and have realised there has been some sort of sexual abuse in my life. When I was about 2 I remember masturbating myself against my father and he seemed amused by this. (he did not try and stop me). I was also extremely very sexually aware from a young age and from as long as I can remember I have always been able to bring myself to orgasm and used to masturbate in front of other people. I have no other memories of actual abuse and I have only just made the connection. I am considering actually going to see a hypnotherpist to see if there are any further memories. It's msaking me feel so sick all of this and sad, because I feel that I have been in denial. Would you consider this sexual abuse and how 'normal' is it for children of that age to actually masturbate?

I am sorry, I didnt want to ignore this but I have no idea
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Im sorry to here this Bigmummal, sounds like you have some questions you need to be answered if you feel that hypnotherapy is a way to get answers then do it (if you feel you want to know). I don't have any experence in this so cant really give you any great advice but if you want some one to talk to i can listen. Very young children do take a great intrest in themselves in that way, and is very common, so it could be nothing but I think you need to know. Also masturbating in front of partner/husband is very common too, it doesnt mean anything wrong has happerned. If you really want to know try and get a section booked ASAP. Good luck xx

sometimes people can have false memories of abuse through being hypnotised, i am just strating to study this as part of my degree so sadly dont know much more.

I do think that little girls and boys are very interested in their bits; my friends little girl used to put things in there and my boys are always poking their things. Do you think he took an interest in the fact you were masturbating or just ignoring you; or laughing to lighten the situation? What other people? It is common to do it infront of partners for example.

I hope that you are ok and find peace through this difficult time.