For how to get through the days really. I didn’t know where to post this, the other boards can be a bit scary. I’ve come out of an abusive relationship recently that lasted several years, but I didn’t realise how bad it actually was. Recently my ex partner did something that triggered a series of events meaning I had to speak to police (as he sent them to my house), eventually meaning I had to discuss details of sexual abuse alongside a host of other things that I had vowed never to speak about. This was a little over a week ago. Since then, things have gone silent from every professional that works with me, despite me trying to make contact: and it’s caused me to fall apart inside. I know I will hear from them in time. But I can’t focus on anything because if I try I just break down; because I remember everything all over again, and I also feel stupid for saying anything at all. I know there are people that use this site that have been though the wars and all this would be nothing in comparison. What do you do when you can’t give any more? I have two young children and, given the circumstances in which they were conceived, the anxiety and despair I feel sometimes when I look at them is actually killing me inside. I honestly wish I had kept my mouth shut.